One More

I wrote this because I know i love to easily and hard...  To let someone go is the hardest thing i can do.. Sometimes you can meet that one person and you tell yourself you can be friends and not have nothing else with that person. But in all reality being friends can be the hardest thing.. esp if they ever decide to get a new girl.. that can hurt.. As much as i cried, a person would say that the person isnt even worth my tears.. but in my eyes your worth alot and mean alot to me.. so what can i do and where can i really go from here but respect Him.. but on the inside crying...

One More: By Riva

Can I cry you out my system...

My pillow moist from my tears….

Because things that were so cloudy became very clear...

It hurts...

Not a little...

A Lot...

In my mind I knew it was coming...

In my heart I was in denial  being wanted and longing.. for you

But things took a turn...

I was always looking around in the dark trying to gather tools..

Tools to fix, to reconfigure back to how we were in the beginning...

But..

My feelings for you meant nothing..

You showed no emotions to how I really felt and I played with what I was dealt...

The feeling of knifes crushing my heart and soul  felt like a tight belt...

And I'm tired..

Tired of being IN Love with you..

So ill love you from a distance and respect your wishes...

But if you gave me the true chance you wouldn’t regret your decision...

I wrote this because it doesn't take long for you to fall in love with someone...You can love someone and they not feel the same way.. It hurts but what can u do? Nothing...live like they love u back and keep them in the friends zone... or move on... All in decisions.. and choices... but i can honestly say i love u .. But Love has its limits and mine is just about up because im starting to realize im in love with myself because he doesn't accept what i want to give him..

Im trying to express myself

Trying to Make it crystal clear

Time is running thin

It has already began

Im tryna get u to listen to me

Just give me ur time

Somethings kant be put on hold

Please just listen to me

Didn’t want to write a letter starting with Dear.

But your time is fragile to u and i don’t need you to disappear

Im coming out to tell you

How my heart is so full

Its so vividly clear

I love u like a helpless fool..

Reserved for 2

 

Reserved

There was a reservation for two ..

But YOU..

YOU cancelled...

Not the first time I had to handle..

Handle the inconsistency of Your egotistical mind…

You Never can make up your damn mind…

You say its all you and its not me

But I Keep..

Keep giving you chance after chance but how long is to long…

My heart is playing tug a war with this thing we have ..

Its like we have a fresh cut grass and weeds keeps blocking the way..

You mean more then just a silly lil game

Spiritually, intellectually, and physically you intercede in me bringing out what I consider fame...

Nothing can quench my thirst but your love, affection, passion, and ur sweet nothings..

But you cancelled..

Once again..

So I look at my phone in disgust like what the hell is he doing to me

I choose to smile..

And I have come to terms that someone else will gladly take your place..

Though I keep envisioning your face

This is a battle of my heart of what we have and either I run to homebase

Or run away to dodge the ball coming to my heart…. broken….never wanting to resurface..

The question is..

Where do I go from here...